About a BOY...

Okay not a boy, a man...I just liked that title better.
I still stick to an earlier comment that I made about me not at all being in a place where I am ready or looking for dating or dealing with guys at this point in my life. With that said,... I do still have to deal with myself, and just recently some feelings for a certain someone came fluttering back up to the surface. This man??? An old boyfriend. It has been a while since we last talked but it looks like we will be seeing eachother soon for an important date (my BIG 25th birthday party....WOOHOO!!!). In the spirit of being honest I have to admit that I am really excited, nervous, and anxious about seeing him. And from what I have been told, he is looking forward to seeing me as well. I kinda feel like a teenager with a crush, only I am not and that situation is just not that simple. Timing has always been our issue and while I am looking forward to this little reunion, I need to remember to stay true to myself and the path I am on for the future I deserve. I do still have hope that with time we will get the chance to finally be together and have the future we have both wanted with eachother,...but that time is not now. This guy is the only relationship I had that I can look back on and see that he was genuine and truly cared about me. This guy is a good guy and my feelings for him have never gone away, they have just been put on pause...and then play,...and then pause, and then play,...and then pause again. You get the idea. lol. Its a long and complicated relationship but this I know, this guy will always hold a place in my heart and he will always be my friend!