The END

While this whole Blogger experience was something new to try, I have to say that I am already over it. It was good for me to see what everyone was talking about, but much like myspace...it is just not for me. I am just too busy with work and school and my daughter to keep up on it. Also I found that my blogging takes time away from my journaling, and that is much more important to me. So for Little Ms Falangie this is THE END!

Looking to my FUTURE

Its Official,...I am 25. And YES, I had a good birthday.
Pretty much the whole day went well without too many upsets or distractions. I ate good food, got to see my family, got to shop and found some awesome shoes, and I got to get dressed up and go out with some of my closest friends. It was fun and I drank alot. I was definitely drunk, but did not drink too much. I had three goals for my birthday night: 1. drink 2. dance 3. have a good time............and I am happy to say that I accomplished those birthday night goals. And did I mention that my ex-boyfriend was there? I was glad he came and it made me happy that we were able to spend time together and get along like we use to. It felt pretty natural and it made us both happy to have fun together after so long apart. We are not about to or even close to ready to jump into our relationship again, but there is still alot of feelings there and chemistry and love. But as much as we both feel for each other, we still want to be smart about how we approach our relationship as it is now, as friends. I cannot lie and say that we were complete angels that night, but I am proud to say that we did not cross any lines that would complicate things. I think the best thing for both of us was that we were back to ourselves and able to look at each other and remember that we still enjoy each others company, and make each other laugh, and still feel that closeness,...even after all of that time. Overall, I think my big 25th birthday went well and I feel good. Not about the day or me and my ex, but mostly about me and my future. 25 to me, is my new direction, my fresh start. I feel like up to this mile stone I have been through so many challenges and learned so much. I may not know what my future holds or who I will end up with, but I am 25 now and I know who I am and what I want. I am going to continue on my path for a great future for me and my daughter, and I am going to continue to be the person I want to be, and make me and my little girl proud. I do feel anxious and nervous and even scared to see if my hopes and dreams will come true. But that is okay, because I feel stronger than ever before and ready to keep climbing that hill so I can see what is at the top.

TWO more days to go

The countdown continues...with only TWO more days until my big 25th Birthday. WOOHOO!
I am looking forward to it just in case you do not get that. I want to make it a good day and I really hope it is. I am looking forward to seeing my family, eating great food, and partying hard that night with my good friends. What will I wish when I blow out those candles?????
That is for me to know and hope it comes true.
;)

One TOO many

Have you ever looked back on a night of drinking with friends and had to face the reality of the night before? Have you ever realized that you should of stopped at your 6th drink, knowing that had you done that your whole night might have turned out differently? Well I had one of those nights this past Saturday where I definitely had one drink too many. There is a part of me who can laugh about it because there were those funny drunken moments. However, for the most part I am not exactly proud of my behavior and it is actually a tiny bit embarrassing. I guess it is pretty bad when you have to make a call the next day to apologize to someone. At the same time, to try to make myself feel better about the situation, I reminisce on the many ways it could have gone that would have been much worse. And in the spirit of thinking positively, I can feel proud that I did not do any of the following: strip off any article of clothing, dance on any bar or table, fall or break anything, make out with anyone or give anyone my number and then have to change it the next day, and I did not end up in jail or in some unknown location with any unknown person. LOL. Okay, so I have not done most of those things ever but still, it does make me feel a tiny bit better.

NEWS

Is it just me or is it getting harder and harder to watch the news???

Most days I make an effort to not watch the news because it often leaves me with this sick feeling in my stomach and a sadness that I cannot explain.