About a BOY...

Okay not a boy, a man...I just liked that title better.
I still stick to an earlier comment that I made about me not at all being in a place where I am ready or looking for dating or dealing with guys at this point in my life. With that said,... I do still have to deal with myself, and just recently some feelings for a certain someone came fluttering back up to the surface. This man??? An old boyfriend. It has been a while since we last talked but it looks like we will be seeing eachother soon for an important date (my BIG 25th birthday party....WOOHOO!!!). In the spirit of being honest I have to admit that I am really excited, nervous, and anxious about seeing him. And from what I have been told, he is looking forward to seeing me as well. I kinda feel like a teenager with a crush, only I am not and that situation is just not that simple. Timing has always been our issue and while I am looking forward to this little reunion, I need to remember to stay true to myself and the path I am on for the future I deserve. I do still have hope that with time we will get the chance to finally be together and have the future we have both wanted with eachother,...but that time is not now. This guy is the only relationship I had that I can look back on and see that he was genuine and truly cared about me. This guy is a good guy and my feelings for him have never gone away, they have just been put on pause...and then play,...and then pause, and then play,...and then pause again. You get the idea. lol. Its a long and complicated relationship but this I know, this guy will always hold a place in my heart and he will always be my friend!

When Does INTEREST Turn Into Stalking???

This entry is a continuation of the "What makes them think" blog. Only I feel as though it is not something out of my life, but rather a scene from one of those TV movies. So, the guy from the gym...just does not seem to get the hint. I guess I should mention my part in this story before I go on. The other day when the first incident occurred, this guy followed me when I walked to my car to leave the gym, still pushing conversation. I was still trying to be polite, all the while trying to make it clear that I was not there to meet anyone. While walking I am looking for my cell phone in my purse and cannot find it. He has his cell in hand and says to me, "here, call it". Without thinking, I call my phone from his. I did not hear my phone, we said goodbye, he did this weird pat on my shoulder half arm around me thing as I shrugged away from him and got into my car feeling very awkward about the whole thing. At the time, I did not think that part of the story was important. What has changed you might ask? Well, he has called my phone several times now and text me. It has recently been pointed out to me that I should have been much more direct and not only not used his phone, but also not let him walk with me to my car. What should I have said to get him to back off and stop??? Anyways! I did not answer or return his calls or his texts. The next day I speak with a friend of mine who tells me that he is the same guy who hit on her when she went to the gym just a few weeks earlier. I have to add this funny little addition,...He told us both that he is on the football team at MJC, which we soon learned that he was in fact NOT on the football team. So my friend and I decide to work out together yesterday and I am quite sure that will keep him away for good. Oh but I was mistaken! He still comes over to talk to me, even after what I thought was me making it obvious that I was ignoring him. I thought I was putting off this whole 'don't even think about coming over here' vibe,...but either he is an idiot or he did not care. The first few words he says to me, I completely ignore. That does not get him to walk away. He continues to attempt to get a response from me with what I think was a start to his lame explanation of why he called my phone so many times the night before. I finally look up at him, cutting him off I say, "I am here trying to work out with my friend and I really do not want to talk to you". He rolls his eyes and walks back over to his friend. I felt bad that I was rude but feel like I had to be to get him to leave me alone. Did that work? NO!!! He still text my phone last night, asking me why I was being so shady to him. So I ask you,...When does INTEREST turn into STALKING???????????????????????????????
Should I text him back or ignore him? How mean do I have to get to make my point?

Trial Period

Well this is my trial period. I am testing the Blogger waters. I am still on the fence about this whole internet craze and here to see what the fuss is all about. I already decided that I am anti-myspace, but someone gave a good enough argument for me to give this a try.

What makes them think.....

So...I was in the gym this afternoon forcing myself to put in my "weight training" time. Where I really want to be is at Krispy Creme Donuts, eating one(or three) of those creme filled glazed donuts. None the less, I am pushing through and working out and sweating like no ones business. And I am not one of those girls that when they sweat they just look like they have this natural glow. I have sweat pouring down my face and I am beaming red, and I could not have smelled pleasant at this point. It was definitely not my most glamorous moment. For whatever reason, this guy decides to leave his pack of friends that he was comparing muscles with and walk over to me. Do I for one second think it was to make use of the empty bike that was beside me? Umm, NO. He begins to make this uncomfortable small talk with me. I made my best effort to be polite, instead of saying what I thought, which was, "why the hell are you bothering me?". He begins to spit out these lines that made me cringe. "So, what is your sign?","What kind of things are you interested in?", "So, what are you doing this weekend?". The entire time I was thinking to myself,...You have got to be kidding me! I made me way out of the building with out screaming or punching him in his face, but felt great concern for this guy and those guys that are like him. Are all men like this man? What makes them think that they are such a gift that we(women) would want to be bothered by them, or picked up by them? What makes them think that it is okay to intrude upon our time? What makes them think that they are so great that if they show interest in us (genuine or not), we would automatically be interested in them in return? Does a man stop and think to himself... maybe she has a man, maybe I am not her type, or she might just be here to work out and not to be picked up on????????? Or does a man assume that he is god's gift to women and that if he gives us the time of day, we should fall to his feet in aww?