Looking to my FUTURE

Its Official,...I am 25. And YES, I had a good birthday.
Pretty much the whole day went well without too many upsets or distractions. I ate good food, got to see my family, got to shop and found some awesome shoes, and I got to get dressed up and go out with some of my closest friends. It was fun and I drank alot. I was definitely drunk, but did not drink too much. I had three goals for my birthday night: 1. drink 2. dance 3. have a good time............and I am happy to say that I accomplished those birthday night goals. And did I mention that my ex-boyfriend was there? I was glad he came and it made me happy that we were able to spend time together and get along like we use to. It felt pretty natural and it made us both happy to have fun together after so long apart. We are not about to or even close to ready to jump into our relationship again, but there is still alot of feelings there and chemistry and love. But as much as we both feel for each other, we still want to be smart about how we approach our relationship as it is now, as friends. I cannot lie and say that we were complete angels that night, but I am proud to say that we did not cross any lines that would complicate things. I think the best thing for both of us was that we were back to ourselves and able to look at each other and remember that we still enjoy each others company, and make each other laugh, and still feel that closeness,...even after all of that time. Overall, I think my big 25th birthday went well and I feel good. Not about the day or me and my ex, but mostly about me and my future. 25 to me, is my new direction, my fresh start. I feel like up to this mile stone I have been through so many challenges and learned so much. I may not know what my future holds or who I will end up with, but I am 25 now and I know who I am and what I want. I am going to continue on my path for a great future for me and my daughter, and I am going to continue to be the person I want to be, and make me and my little girl proud. I do feel anxious and nervous and even scared to see if my hopes and dreams will come true. But that is okay, because I feel stronger than ever before and ready to keep climbing that hill so I can see what is at the top.